IfOnlyItWereEasy

Waiting for an hour,
Constantly judged,
Regretting the red trousers,
Maybe a little.

If they'd install,
A couple of benches,
Or even some chairs,
I'd be happy.

The stained glass,
Adds nothing,
Other than a false hope,
This place is nice.

Could they please fix,
That bloody fan,
That won't stop,
Constantly rattling.

Avoid eye contact,
At all costs,
Pretend to be checking,
The daily news.

Awkward small talk,
Never gets easier,
Maybe it is,
The generation gap.

It's getting dark,
Outside the station,
Now where is
The stupid bus?

Why did I,
Bother running,
When I know,
It's late anyway.

God my legs,
Are really hurting,
See what I mean,
About those seats?

Do you think,
I can't see,
You tutting and,
Rolling your eyes?

I'm not sure,
What I've done,
Other than sit,
Minding my business.

There are only,
So many times,
I can keep,
Refreshing Facebook.

Please tell me,
It's not me,
Who really smells
A bit like wee.

'Must be traffic'
'Or an accident'
'Friday traffic pet'
'Want a mint?'

'Fuck off mate'
'Been Christmas shopping'
'Seen ma lass'
'What's the number?'

Not too sure,
If that's lemonade,
Or if someone,
Didn't fancy the walk.

With those scars,
Bet he has,
A story to tell,
Shame, I won't ask.

What is her problem,
I've done nothing,
Not even spoken,
'Damn Teenagers'

The boredom is,
Finally beating me,
I can't take it,
Look a bus!

I've seen it,
On my road,
What 's the worst,
That could happen.

I'm not sure,
Where I am,
I think I'm lost,
On the 492.

'Last stop love'
Oh now what,
Where am I,
God knows.

Should have just waited
for the 64a

How many days
Have I waited
For hours
In the rain
Only for you
Not to show.

How many hours
Have I spent
Sat in those
Ugly plastic chairs
Wishing I was
Anywhere else?

How many times
Have I had
Those judging looks
Thrown my way
For something
I hadn't done.

How many minutes
Have I wasted
Willing red lights
To change faster
So I can
Get to college.

How many tears
Have I shed
Worrying about
Being late
Because you've
Messed me around?

Too many.

Bus journeys.

I hate you.

More importantly my motivation has surfaced and I spent an hour this morning with the dog taking photos. I aimed at birds, and instead ended up with only the dog as she took great pleasure in scaring them off. But she did plonk her butt in some snow for me, so everything is okay! There will be some pictures at somepoint, not very good ones mind you, but I'll get there eventually...

IOIWE